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F-I-V-E FREAKING DEGREES DURING THE MIDDAY IN NOVEMBER! THAT’S CRAZY!
I think we’re in for a cold one this year. 
You know what’s one thing I LOVE about exam period or coursework due dates? (Not that there’s much to love during that period of time but that’s besides the point.)
Subway cookies! Oatmeal and raisin, chocolate chunk, double chocolate chip, rainbow chunk, macadamia nut. LOVE LOVE LOVE.
When it comes to stressful times, it’s always time for Subway cookies. And I must have at least 3 of them. Well maybe not all in one sitting but I’ve done it before and gotten quite sick afterwards. Lol.
So now I sit licking cookie crumbs off my fingers. Bliss. (:
Annnnddddd back to work. Why do I blog more when I have work due? -_-
I’m tired and drained and feeling like nothing is worth everything I do. I’m fighting to keep my faith. Heck I’m fighting just to keep my spirits up. I’m piled up with tutorial readings and on top of it all, all the career events shit isn’t helping. I get more depressed at every talk or event I go to. People tell me I’m never getting anywhere if I don’t have passion. And at this point in time I still don’t know if law is what I truly want to do. Yes I’ve had this conversation countless times with countless different people. But now it’s different. I need to make a choice soon. And soon is not very far off. I need to start applying for internships, training contracts, BPTC, pupillage whatever. I have options thrown at me right left and centre and I don’t know if I’m in the right place to begin with. I’m questioning why am I here. Will I even make it out of here? Who am I supposed to be? Where is life taking me? Where are You taking me? Are You even here?!
I need a friend. Someone who would talk to me without trying to push me into believing that I’m on the right path. Someone with unbiased perceptions. Not someone who tells me everything is going to be alright because that’s not what I need to hear right now. I need You God. Where are You? Why is it everything so difficult right now?
COLD COLD COLD. Winter’s truly here. Ears have started freezing. But I want ice-cream. Thinking of dropping the “e” since everyone spells my name without the “e” anyway. Really should be reading law articles. But jurisprudence is such a beat-about-the-bushes-only-to-end-up-with-no-answer subject. Procrastinating. Looking at websites of the top law firms in the UK and thinking of applying for their vacation schemes but scared+nervous at thought of interviews. Need to type out CV soon. Sighhhhhh. In second year and I already need to start thinking about potential job opportunities. 
Two days into classes and I’m SICK. I think it was the bug passing around combined with Domino’s and Coke dinner AND too much laughing the night before. Sore throat, cough and fever. NOT swine if you’re wondering. -_-
In attempts to get cured as soon as possible (without gargling with salt. Ugh that’s like rubbing salt into a wound!), I’ve been trying all sorts of remedies.
Honey lemon (without the honey cos I forgot to buy it when I went to the supermarket lol) and instant Lo Hon Ko (however you spell it) given by housemate, Panadol, lots and lots of warm water and as I’m typing this, green tea.
Anyway besides being sick, I’ve been cooking! Okay so far I’ve been cooking with my housemates (and one of them can cook so she supervises) or ordering food but tonight they’re out for some meeting. So presenting…. the first meal I’ve ever cooked on my own!
Wheeeeee! Ok I used the instant pasta sauce from the supermarket, the sausages were a little too oily and burnt and the pasta was a little on the hard side but at least it was edible! Yay for meal number one! Hopefully the next few meals to come stay edible. 
Anyway on the law side of things, I’ve been surprised. Surprised to find that the subjects I think I would hate I actually quite enjoy (not saying it seems easy but it seems interesting enough to enjoy) like Jurisprudence and Crime, Justice and Society. While I thought I would enjoy Property 2 I was struggling to stay awake in lecture today. -_- European Union is even worse though. It was “mind-boggling boring” like expected. Only Advanced Contract and Tort left to see. And French starts next week but it would definitely beat all the law units in terms of interestingness. Lol. Ok once this annoying throaty cough thing passes I’m ready to put everything into studying.
But first things first, tidy room! It’s amazing how I’m untidier than most guys I know. LOL. And oh yeah, I absolutely loving the house! Well not the house as in the building itself, but more of living with my housemates. 
And I love my room! Pictures up once I clear it. 
Missing all you back home. Skype and MSN me! xxx
She leaves tonight. After a week of glorious shopping under the sun, doing my laundry and teaching me everything she knows about cooking in hopes I won’t starve, she’s headed back. ):
Mannnnn I miss her. (And it’s not only cos she cooks for me!) But I know she’s glad to be going home and the holidays roll around pretty quick here so it won’t be too long before I head home.
For now, it’s law time. Got my timetable, it seems really mentally exhausting. Property lectures back-to-back, jurisprudence and EU back-to-back as well, french classes end at 7.30. The only good thing is I get Wednesdays off but seeing I have a seminar that clashes with French I would probably need to fill my Wednesdays then.
Sigh. Being a second year feels OLD. Am needing A LOT of motivation now to get me started for the academic year. Anyway, will get online soon once I catch up with all the Gossip Girl I’ve been missing and things start settling down. (:
…are you listening? I am feeling a little out of touch from the rest of the world right now. Am hoping for a little normalcy once next week comes round and my house is sorted out and all the scrub-downs, washing and buying (microwave, tumble-drier, mop, tv) is done.
My family came back with me so we’ve been seeing some of UK, not as much as I like cos all the brothers want to do is sit in front of the laptops and play games. -_- Heading to London for the end of the week before the brothers and dad leave for home and mum stays with me for another week – yay for edible food and ironing done for a week
So yeah everything is good at the moment. The familiarity is surprisingly welcoming. House is in a little bit of a mess but I think we just need to do some major spring cleaning and it will be ok. Daddy changed the blinds of the bathroom, fixed stuff etc – yay too for a handy dad!
So till I have time to come online again, listen to Vultures and Another Kind of Green by John Mayer Trio. Hooked to these songs at the moment (: see ya! x
Ultimate goal to achieve while working at a Kumon centre? To have a child pick you to teach them over the other teachers. And yes I did achieve it before I left! Cos the Kumon kids always pick teachers and I always thought no one will like me enough to pick me but I was proven wrong this week. This boy who asked me if I had a boyfriend before and thought I was 25 years old ( ) asked for me yesterday only I was too busy then.
It’s so hard knowing these kids are the ones you’re never seeing again. The little girls who smile and chat with you, this particular girl who goes “Yay!” when she gets to do her classwork with me, the little boy who waved at me… the children that tell me everything. Aww I’m going to miss them. It’s especially harder when they’ve just began to warm up to me and I’m gone now. Sigh.
So the packing starts AGAIN. First off, I’m headed back to the “hometown” for some good food this weekend! Penang here I come! No, I don’t come from Penang but I go there nearly every year with my family that it feels like it’s my hometown. We haven’t been there as a family in years so it’s good that we’re heading back this weekend.
And after I get back it’s time to start packing for Brizzle. You would think after all times I’ve been flying back and forth I would have been a pro at this packing thing. Well nope. I still hate it. I hate both packing and unpacking. I still forget things and bring too much. The only thing is that I’ve probably gotten faster at it. Lol.
Oh I had a KL-by-public-transport day last Wednesday and I’ve gotta say I’m extremely (X 10000000) blessed to not have to use the KTM as a means of going around. It’s one thing you learn to be grateful about after you’ve experienced rush hour on trains in Malaysia. Blessed to have a car. Blessed to have a brother or parents to drive me around. Blessed to have a driving license. Lol.
Anyway two weeks of nothing to do so will blog more perhaps? I don’t really know what to blog about anymore actually but that will change I get back to Bristol cos I’m always bored there. Lol. Taaaa!
During my week away from the internet I finished my homework and whew, I think the presentation went ok during the weekend. Watched a movie (finally!). Caught a fever but was happier that I could take leave more than anything else. Hung out with Jayson who is on holiday for only another week more. Had more time to spend on devotion. (: And I also realised,
- I spend waaaaaay too much time online and when I don’t go online I have so much more time for other things. Also, once I get online I spend AGES online. So simple solution, don’t turn on the computer. (: And that explains all the “Where have you been?!”s.
- Whether I sleep early or late, I wake up late anyway. -_- Sad to say.
Right now I have also two weird conditions keeping me from staying on the computer for too long. This dull constant ache in my left shoulder when I sit too long which started when I started working and the constant fluctuation of temperature. I get very hot then very cold an hour later. It’s not a fever but I can’t explain it.
Annnnnd 6 more days of work! Back to UK in about 3 weeks and a half
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight.
