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He’s so good-looking, I think in 10 years he’s going to be such a heartbreaker! And he so so looks like Wentworth Miller! LOL. Kinda bummed I’m missing the finals tomorrow but no matter what happens, he’s my winner for Britain’s Got Talent! 
Exams have been intense. But God has truly been faithful and amazing. All the Holy Spirit promptings and giving me memory I don’t normally have (The absent mindedness gets so bad that I tend to forget what I’m saying mid-sentence. Lol). Only tiny problem was not obeying Him. Was so distinctly and clearly asked to read that particular article last night but I wanted to sleep instead.-_- But it’s okay, overall the exams have been good. For first time ever, I feel satisfied about an exam. (:
It honestly feels odd to not have to do anything. To not have to look at words. Read, read and more reading. Or look for cases or make notes. To not have to force myself to go to the library every morning lugging all the heavy textbooks. Or spend unnecessary money on cab fare cos I leave the library at 12 and it’s too late to walk alone or take the bus.
Ahhhh it feels good to be free. To know that I have no need to use my brain for the next four months. XD
Paris on Saturday morning! Then back in UK for about 2 – 3 weeks before it’s home bound!
One awesome thing about being in the UK - Britain’s Got Talent! The woman judge is crap though. Hot but her judging is worse than Paula, I’m serious. Yep, that’s what I’m doing this evening while all the other lawyers hit the clubs and get wasted. I’m such a geek I know. But I rather be a geek than get so embarrassingly drunk and have the photos all over Facebook. Don’t understand how some people let themselves get into that state.
Anyway, loads to blog about, loads to think about now that my mind is cleared of all the law stuff and plenty of time to put those thoughts into words. Till I get back from Paris, au revoir and dieu vous bénisse! xxx
There I was starving. No idea why either, it was only 11 am but I was feeling peckish. And I needed something to munch. Reached for my seaweed stash only to find Twisties sent from home underneath them! Yay for mummy! Something to fill me up and to remind me of home! Finished it. Looked at the packet just after I did to realise that it has been two weeks since the expiry date.
-_-”
Exams truly do bring out the blonde in me. Sigh.
Anyway, I got/ am getting/ going to get my miracle! I truly believe and claim it! God is amazing! 
See you in 2 – 3 days!
*Old post. Found it under my drafts. Don’t know why I never published it before cos this is exactly how I feel about life.
Love is…
Hot chocolate. The smell of good coffee. Being in His presence. That old man waiting on the platform with a bouquet of red roses. Photography. Ice cold coke. A warm bed on a cold night. A good episode of Gossip Girl. Nail polish. Warm sunny days. The brother whose annoyance transcends oceans. Lifehouse’s You and Me. That little girl whose face absolutely shines with happiness when she sees her mum coming to pick her. His joy. A memory filled with smells, sounds and sights. Fitting into an old pair of jeans. Knowing that someone thinks about you. Dessert. Sister who is also best friend. 50 years of marriage. Sushi. A playful dog. Gorgeous shoes. Worshipping Him. Finding a bargain. A good read. Lying in on a Saturday morning. That bratty younger sibling who is an absolute nuisance but you can’t live without. Ice-cream. Shimmery eye shadow. That old couple smiling at each other over afternoon tea. Stepping on fresh untrodden snow. New clothes. The little boy who is always looking out for his younger sister. Good tunes. Rain on windows. Parents who always keep you in their prayers. Laughing children. Missing someone. Having compassion.
Love is all that but also beyond. Love is Him dying for me. And for you.
Love is knowing that I’m going to be with Him for eternity and because of that, my soul sings. <3
Suddenly, without noticing, life is here again. Green everywhere, reminding us where there was once barrenness, life has come again. And it’s these little details we often miss. So complacent that we begin to stop seeing and overlook the finer lines. Things that show us that the end of a season is just the start of a new one.
So hooha deedum, I’m 3 days to finals. This time in a week I’m done with 2 exams. This time in 2 weeks I’ll be in Paris. This time in a month I’ll be packing away my first year here into neat(hopefully) little boxes. This time in 5 weeks I would finally be home. 9 months gone. One academic year done with. A crazy period of flying between home and home-away-from-home, growing up, growing old, hurting, laughter, tears, His joy, new friends, realising which truly are the friendships that will last, disappointment, happiness… plenty of things and emotions I wouldn’t have known if I hadn’t come here.
Lately I’ve been questioning things and searching. But I don’t need the uncertainty that comes with it. At least not right now. Keep me in your prayers that these two weeks are going to fly past with me having the right mindset and focus.
And yes I’ve started Twitter-ing. (Top left hand corner of this page) So if stalking me on my blog is not enough, you’re more than welcome to follow me on Twitter – http://twitter.com/katjy. So till I’m done with exams (soon soon ), go listen to Snow Patrol’s The Planets Bend Between Us. Ta!
I got my birthday mail today! Mark Jay Min Lee! Do you know daddy wrote in your card? He cancelled the word “kill” and put “bless” instead! And with an asterisk on it saying “Parental control. Sorry for the invasion of privacy.” HAHAHA! It was hilarious!!!! And what you said just referred to Jayson’s card ok. -_- By the way, at first I thought you were going to say “I chose this card cos it had a picture of a car on it to remind you of yours which is in very bad condition now” Haha. But jokes aside, make sure the car is in drive-able condition when I get home! CLEAN IT OUT FOR GOODNESS SAKE! Or else I’m throwing all your notes, shoes etc when I start driving again. And no more scratches please I beg you!
One subject down, three to go. To finish in one and a half week. Can do? Phil 4:13 tells me yes. (:
I’m not going to lie and say that I had a great birthday cos I didn’t. I thought being away from family during my dad and brother’s birthdays last weekend was hard but it was harder to be alone for mine.
But the little attempt to surprise me by dragging me to the toilet, soaking the sun (for the 1st time this week!) and just enjoying His presence this morning, the cake and song over webcam (omg that made me cry so much), the very funny FB message which said something like, “YOU ARE VERY FAR AWAY SO HAVE TO SHOUT VERY LOUDLY” and all the birthday song singing aloud to embarrass me did help. A lot. (:
And the best thing ever about today? Dinner at Flavourz with the hall friends – I laughed till my cheeks hurt so bad. I honestly thought I won’t enjoy dinner that much but I did. Thank God for amazing friends. (:
Exams are looming ahead. In 2 weeks-ish to be exact. Frankly am nervous like crazy but I also know it isn’t going to be a biggie. How can it be when I have the Holy Spirit? But it feels like I live in the library now. Ugh. All the coffee and vending machine junk isn’t helping the gastritis and skin condition.
So am going on a short hiatus till they are over cos I am in the ASS library (with the disgustingly dirty and messy toilets. 
) from day to night everyday and I really don’t need this right now. So seeeeeeee you! Summer, hurry up and get here already!
I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother, inside and out, he’s better than I am
I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run
And I had the best days with you
There is a video I found from back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you’re talking to me
It’s the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs
And Daddy’s smart and you’re the prettiest lady in the whole wide world
And now I know why the all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
For staying back and watching me shine
And I didn’t know if you knew, so I’m takin’ this chance to say
That I had the best day with you today
- The Best Day, Taylor Swift
Happy Mummy’s Day. I love you and I’m thinking of you today.
Not only my mum but also my best friend – that’s who you are to me. Lots and lots of love.
I miss you so much. Stop sending me texts that make me cry! Haha. Can’t wait to see you!
xxx
Sometimes we never see the warning
And the voice in your head tells you not to go
It really makes me wonder why somethings happen when they do
It really makes me wonder why it wasn’t me instead of you
And I know what it says almost by heart; I’ve read it so many times. But it felt different today. Those words seem so… distant. As if it came from someone I didn’t know. Maybe, it’s true. Cos now sometimes I feel like I don’t know you anymore. I remembered the last time I happen to glance upon that message. I laughed and smiled and thought of you. Today… it felt strange and weirdly heavy hearted. I thought about how time and distance has changed us so much. It probably is a good thing for us both but I can’t help wishing for a split second that time would just take me back to that moment.
And when you say
It doesn’t matter well it does
And all it takes
Is a mistake to eat your words
Just one more time I think I’ll drive on home tonight
Run, run, run. Feel the rain on your face. The exhilaration of seeing everything whizz past you and turn into a blur of colours. And… maybe, just maybe if you ran hard enough or fast enough you could feel your legs leave the ground and just taste the freedom of flight. And even if you don’t, close your eyes, see those wings in your mind, laugh it off and feel like a child again.
And when you look its gone its too late to turn around
And it’s another day facing yourself and the things that you’ve done
These are the reminders I need when life gets me down. The silly jokes and life lessons in those morning emails. A text on the way to university that someone back home is thinking of you. The occasional online message when it’s not one of those times that “I’m busy playing game. Don’t talk to me.” Zumongous indeed huh. Emoticons war and then “Bye fatty bom bom!” A whisper in the wind, reminding me He’s there, come what may.
And when you say
It doesn’t matter well it does
And all it takes
Is a mistake to eat your words
Just one more time I think I’ll drive on home tonight
Silence, it settles. Like sadness in your heart. “Hearts will hold,” he said. “But for how long? There surely must be a limit,” she asks quietly. “For as long as you want me to. For as long as you trust me and remember that I love you.”
- Second Chances, Michelle Branch
10 pounds and 12 hours. Wasted today.
Headache. Noise. Inconsideration. I really don’t need this now.
