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I just want one weekend back home. I think the only reason I’m feeling like this is cos it has been close to two months since I was home and Easter break is coming up. Four weeks of loneliness. Another friend left again today. Without saying goodbye. Friends don’t leave without saying goodbye but I’ve already had three friends doing just that. I’m going to miss that guy who lives two doors away and teases me non-stop about my room because it’s too messy. And I think the only reason I’m blogging because I need to let this out. All I really want right now is to talk to someone but there’s no one online. Actually the only person I really want to talk to is my mum but every time I talk to her now, she’s always busy with something or Skype just gets on my nerves. And my stupid phone plan won’t even let me text home so I can’t anymore. 
130 days
If I could be an animal, I would very much like to be a dog. I would have an extremely good life. I’ll be adored by my owners because of my cuteness. And all I have to do to get food is to show pleading eyes and beg. On good days, I’ll get to go out in the sun and play catch and roll around in the grass. I can run after squirrels and play with children. I can chew shoes and chase cats and not be scolded for it cos my owners will probably think it’s cute anyway. I’ll have a person to adore and protect, sometimes more than one. I’ll be petted everyday and get hugs. Even from strangers because of the cuteness factor. And I’ll always be so happy.
Haha. This came about while I was on the bus yesterday and I saw a dog and his owner playing catch on the Downs. And the dog was just so happy. I can tell the dog absolutely loves the owner. Which is why I want a dog. I want to be someone’s person!
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I’m in a funny mood today. I was missing Jayson really bad cos I really want to just give him a huge hug and tickle him and watch TV with him and annoy him by lying on him while he watches TV. Yes, I’m much bigger than him but I do it anyway. Now you know why he is always annoyed with me. Haha. Then I’m craving a huge plate of maggi goreng or nasi lemak and teh ais. I’m also really missing the sun. It disappeared yesterday. All I want is ice-cream on a very hot day. But the sun is gone now and so are my hopes of warm weather. Besides all these, I’m also annoyed to the core. Because I got out of bed to go down to town for my rescheduled tutorial, rushed all the way from bus stop to Wills Memorial Building, ran up 5 flights of stairs (those are killer stairs, I tell you) only to have her tell us that she is rescheduling the class (AGAIN) to tomorrow morning.
I am not amused.
The sun better be out tomorrow.
Nope I still cannot stop waxing lyrical about the sun. 
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it’s all right
Little darling, it’s been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it’s all right
Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it’s all right
Here Comes the Sun – Beatles
My soundtrack of the week.
Enjoy the week you all, I know I will! (:
I have FINALLY taken my DSLR out after MONTHS. And I’m SO extremely-unbelievably-euphorically happy. I missed taking photos so much and it was so good going snap-happy at everything. (Gotta say though, I’ve kinda forgot how to use a DSLR. Photos were a little out of focus and some over-exposed. )We went for a walk around where we stay and found the river. But that was when my camera decides to shut down. I had my digicam as well but it wasn’t the same – the whole thing about putting your eye through the view-finder and hearing the click. Oh wells. (Photos are a mix from the DSLR and the digicam. For more pictures, like always, go to FB!)
First sign of spring!
Spontaneous shot so this could probably do better with a little cropping I think.
It is so amazingly warm today. When I say warm please do be reminded I have been staying in 5 degrees and under weather for a few months now so this morning, warm was 9 or 8 degrees. 
BUT with SUN! Glorious warm bright SUN. <3
The infamous Clifton Suspension Bridge. Tourist attraction of Bristol. Lol.
Days like these make you just want to sit outside and not do any work. We played cards and just lie in the sun. But it got a little chilly after a while cos the grass is a little damp and the wind’s quite strong.
Anyway, enjoy the photos while I enjoy the Vitamin E (or D? I can’t remember anymore. Lol.) overdose!
I now know what is the ultimate-i’ll-love-you-forever-if-you-get-it-for-me-on-top-of-my-wishlist present ever. A 70 – 200 mm f/2.8 Canon lens. Now I’m switching between my 28-80 mm for wide range and my 50mm for good aperture and it gets annoying how I can’t have both at the same time. But that lens is like 2/3 of the price of my DSLR! But if you get it for me, I PROMISE to take photography more seriously and take more photos more often and take lots of nice photos of you. Ha, not like I’m an amazing photographer anyway. Lol.
Picture credits : calvarycommunity.net
I had a very interesting discussion with some of my friends today on racism. It was started off by one of them mentioning how upset he was when he got a “racist” comment thrown at him last night. In my opinion, I didn’t really think it was racist. Insulting, yes. But it was coming from a group of drunk guys who were just fooling around in their drunken state and maybe possibly trying to get you worked up enough for you to start a fight with them.
My friend was adamant that the right thing to do was to let the guys know what they did wasn’t right and give one of them a punch (which honestly, I think it is the stupidest thing to do to a bunch of drunk guys cos obviously drunk people are more violent). He believes that when someone insults you because of your skin colour, you should stand up to defend your race and not ignore it. He went on to say something along the lines of us being where we are because our ancestors stood up for us.
My take on it was just because someone stooped so low to insult you that way and they didn’t have the respect for your race at all, I don’t think it’s necessary for you to retaliate. Actually I personally believe they shout racist things about you on the streets just to see how you would react to it. If you have absolutely no respect for another race, I think you’re just uneducated and ignorant. And just absolutely not worth responding to.
But my friend couldn’t see my point of view. He thinks my reaction is basically “ignoring” because “I can’t do anything about it”. And the fact that I’m doing that shows I’m giving in to the racist remarks. So what if I chose to ignore a racist remark? I don’t get beaten up or get hauled off to jail for assault. And I obviously can’t do anything about a racist comment thrown in my direction when it’s coming from a group of guys. That’s like asking for trouble. If it’s coming from someone I know, I would probably tell him what I think but if it’s off the streets, it’s not worth the fuss.
What I got from the conversation was no human being can save the world. You might try to play the superhero but it’s only going to bring you down. Yes I believe in standing for your rights and the rights of the undermined but there is only so much you can do. I believe in trying to make an impact in society but you can’t fight every battle. Why not fight for something more worth fighting for? Abused children, people in poverty, people struggling to live in war-stricken countries.
You’ve got to pick your battles. There is just no point sometimes. Especially if it’s something as trivial as some white guy shouting “Konnichiwa” at you.
I am falling in love with Jason Reeves’s music.
I first heard about him because of Colbie Caillat. They did two songs together.
Droplets
Permanent
Both really nice chill out songs. But I never listened to his other songs until now. And I wondered why I never did before. It’s awesome and he’s really good. Okay, in my opinion it’s very similar to Colbie’s kinda style. But if you like her music I think you’ll definitely like his. I wanted to put up the music video for Photographs and Memories but I couldn’t find it.
This is a live version of Someone Somewhere. One of my favs from him.
Other ones I liked are The End, Just Friends, You in a Song and The Sun Shines on Everything. Photograph and Memories is a bit too slow for my liking. Old Fashioned Letters is also a little on the slow side but I like it though.
You still write me old fashioned letters
put your perfume on the pages
with crossed out words that you took back
like “do you really miss me?”
Okay I’m one of those girls who believes that Valentine’s Day is too expensive, commercialised and it should be celebrated everyday etc. No different for me this year. But all that said, I’m still a girl and I’m waiting for one of these one day. (:
And the guy I’m going to fall in love with.
But till then, I have Jesus.
And I’m going shopping at Bicester Village tomorrow! Yay-ness!
Have a good one people! xxx
You will not have understood the title if you’re not a law student. I found this group on Facebook that’s called “The Carbolic Smoke Ball cured my cold” and it’s actually a reference to the case Carlill v Carbolic Smoke Ball which we had to do in Contract Law.
And when I read the line “Mrs Carlill must have a very thin skull”, I laughed so hard.
Okay you will not understand why either unless you’re a law student. LOL.
Pointless post but I guess gradually over the months, I have begun to enjoy being a law student. One of my friends did the 25 random facts thing on Facebook and she mentioned something along the lines of, “I wasn’t really sure I wanted to be a law student but now that I’m one, I love it.” And you know what? I feel the same way.
Those who have ever asked me why I wanted to do law know the only reason I chose law was cos I didn’t know what else to do. Lol. And I was never really sure if it was the path for me. But now that I’m one, I’m enjoying it.
Yeah you’ll still hear me complaining about my workload every other day (no longer everyday ) and stress out when assignments are near due date but I realise I do like what I’m doing.
Especially now that I’m with the Law Clinic. The UoB Law Clinic is something like pro-bono work but not quite. We give advice to people who can’t afford lawyers but we don’t take the cases to courts and we have a limited scope on issues we work on, like how we don’t do criminal cases or family law. So I recently got a case which is on wills and it’s really quite interesting. It sucks away my free time but it’s definitely good practice for the future.
So if you ever hear me complain again, well, maybe I just like to complain. HAHA. No I’m just joking. Just ask me to shut up and remind me that I actually like what I’m doing. And to those people who sent me emails making fun of lawyers (you SO know who you are!), just you wait and see – you’re gonna need a lawyer one day and when that day comes, I’m not giving free advice!
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there
Drops of Jupiter – Train
Why is it it’s me who’s still missing you? And why is it always me that misses you?
We weren’t exactly the closest of friends. You never called me and tell me what’s wrong or when something’s troubling you. Most of the time I find out what happens from other people much later. But you made such an impact in my life. I look back at my high school life and I see you. So yes you left. Everyone does. But it’s not the leaving part that hurt (though it did back then). It was the whole “this is the past, I’m moving on and getting along with my life” part that hurt. And it took me two damn years to realise this has been why I look at our “friendship” and I don’t know anything about it. So you went to “find yourself” but did you truly in the end? I know you’re having the time of your life with amazing people. And I’m so happy for you. Really I am. I don’t hate you but I hated that all I got in two years was one phone call, some random SMSes and a few online conversations.
Like I said, we weren’t the best of friends. But don’t you think I deserve a little more than what I got? And didn’t you ever wondered what happened to the rest of us? Didn’t you ever think of us and feel the way I feel now?
But underneath all the angst, what hurts more is the fact you’ve become a total stranger. I miss you and I wish you’ll stop running away.
